Civil War inside me? The true Gospel?

Recently I felt like the Lord was telling me that there was a Civil War going on and that I would be a voice used to help end slavery in His People.  I accepted it and wrote it down.  I have pondered at times how I could possibly ever end up helping people be set free from bondage when I myself seem to struggle in areas. For example: I felt as if I had been set free from bondage to food, but I am by no means perfected in this area.  A few times I have knowingly ate something that I felt like the Lord told me to avoid and I paid heavy prices for it.  Be not deceived, what we sow, we will reap.  There are consequences for sin.  When we know to do something and we don't do it, we will reap destruction.  Jesus came to bring us FREEDOM FROM SIN and the power to overcome it.  He didn't come just to cover it all up and act as if everything is great regardless of what you are doing that is against God's nature.  He chastises those He loves, but that is a totally differen't subject.  I guess the main thing that I am realizing is that the Civil War that's going on inside of me is being fought between my "flesh" and my "spirit" and the "mind" being slave to one or the other.  If my mind is being controlled by the spirit, I am full of life and peace and victory, but if it is being controlled by the "flesh" I am walking in "anger" and "bitterness" and "resentment" and it's torture.  It causes me great sorrow when I am being ruled (governed) by the flesh man.  In that part of me, there is NO GOOD THING!!! It's ugly and I DON'T like it.  If I am governed by the Spirit man (who is controlled by the Holy Spirit) I am walking in LOVE, JOY, PEACE, and all the other fruits listed in Galatians 5:22.  So, if I have a choice in everything and have been given freedom over Sin, WHY DO I STILL CHOOSE TO LISTEN TO THE FLESH MAN? That's my question for the Lord.  This is what I am learning. When I allow the Lord to govern my body, HE keeps everything working just right.  It may look like I am being CONTROLLED by giving up things that the flesh wants, but in fact, I am receiving FREEDOM instead If I decide that I want to REBEL, then there are serious consequences and I am trampling the blood of Jesus under my feet.  My friends, the TRUTH of the Gospel will SET US FREE from all of this.  We need to know that WE CANT but HE CAN!!! We have been taught that we can NOT BE SET FREE from sin and that once a sinner always a sinner, but that is not the case.  You see, Each and every one of us have fallen short of the Glory of God according to the book of Romans and NONE of us can be cleansed apart from the blood of Jesus.  We must each recognize our NEED for HIM and we must TRUST IN HIM daily.  Instead, we have been watering down this glorious gospel that claims total and utter dependence on a savior who was WILLING TO TAKE THE WRATH OF GOD for ALL SIN (past, present, and future) and do our life our own way.  Oh God, have MERCY on us for trampling the blood of Jesus underfoot, whether knowingly or unknowingly.  We have failed to see the truth of your glorious gospel.  Help us to recognize our NEED FOR you so that we can walk free from sin.  We CAN DO NOTHING WITHOUT YOU.  We thank you that the Power of the Holy Spirit is with us so that we can walk this journey and we pray you lead us every step of the way.  If we side step from your GRACE, bring us back into TOTAL DEPENDENCY UPON YOU LORD.  WE WILL DIE if we don't.  Instead, this day, we choose ABUNDANT LIFE and VICTORY OVER THE SIN by not just "accepting" your real GOSPEL that YOU DIED for us to have, but recognizing our NEED for the gospel each and every day.  It wasn't just a one time event, but a daily reminder that GOD HATES SIN AND SINNERS, BUT THAT YOU CAME AND TOOK ALL THAT WRATH UPON YOURSELF SO THAT WE COULD LIVE.  Oh let us NEVER forget that APART FROM YOU, WE CAN DO NOTHING!!!! Jesus you are worthy of ALL I HAVE TO GIVE. Thank you!!!!! Thank you!!!! Thank you!!!!! Help me to live a life worthy of the calling.  One that I am willing to lay down my life for the life of others.  Thank you for your great mercy toward us all!!!!!  I recommend the book, "RADICAL" by David Platt for anyone who would think that they are living their Christian life to the full potential.  It might shock you!  I know I am floored so far.  May the Lord have mercy on us all and may we ALL recognize our need for the blood of Jesus where we are hidden from the wrath of God that is coming!!!