Well, it's been a while since I wrote in this blog. I just had to share what has been going on in our family. God has brought us through a season of fire and testing that has caused us to press into Him deeper than we have been. We have seen so many ups and downs, but one thing has remained: GOD IS STILL GOD AND WE ARE STILL NOT!! He is so faithful. I have cried out for so many areas to be healed but have made a feeble attempt to believe God for what didn't look to be so with the natural eye. I haven't always been the greatest at walking by faith and not by sight. I have allowed the pain and rejection to plant seeds of bitterness or unforgiveness into my heart that I didn't realize were causing my faith to stop at times. Instead, I should be constantly keeping my eyes on Jesus and giving him praise!!! He is worthy of all my focus!! Which leads me to today.
Before church, me and the kids were talking about how good God has been to us and how even though it doesn't look like we have a lot of money, God still owns the cattle on a thousand hills and He is still faithful. I told them that as we focus on HIM that we will become like HIM and that as we walk into church today, lets focus on HIS FACE and give HIM all that we have today. He is faithful and He is worthy of our praise. I talked with Mikayla about the "discernment" that she has begun to feel as she sits in services. She feels other people's pain just like I do. I told her that as she looks at Jesus in the service and gives him the pain that He will heal those with broken hearts.
We had went through Sunday School and into the worship service and Mikayla seemed to be having some pain and so we held hands and prayed for the ones that she was seeing and feeling. She released it and then I told her to let God have all her focus now. So, as the next song began to play which was off of the Passion 2012 CD called "The ony One"- See Lyrics below
"THE ONLY ONE"
I believe every heart needs a healer
Someone to walk through the fire
All I need I have found
Everyone is looking for a Savior
When it feels like the world is going under
All i need i have found
Chorus:
In my life, Jesus
More of You, Jesus
You are the One
You are the One
In everything, Jesus
My heart sings, Jesus
You are the One
You are the only One
Everyday there's a hope to remember
Yesterday's been washed in the water
All i need I have found
Chorus
I believe every heart needs a healer
Someone to walk through the fire
I have found
She began to get excited about Jesus. Now for those of you who know my little girl, you will know that she is not a very outward spoken personality like me. It's hard for her to express outwardly what she is going through inwardly. So, it was very exciting to see her coming out of her shell (which has been a long time prayer for her). I looked over and she was holding her precious little hands toward heaven and had her eyes closed and you could see God working with her and healing her heart. It was beautiful!!! Then, as the worship intensified, we began singing "The Great I AM" (lyrics below)
I wanna to be close close to your side
So heaven is real and death is a lie
I wanna hear voices of angels above
Singing as one
Hallelujah Holy Holy
God almighty Great I am
Who is worthy
None beside Thee
God Almighty
Great I Am
I wanna be near near to your heart
Loving the word hating the dark
I want to see dry bones living again
Singing as one
Chorus
Hallelujah
Holy Holy
God almighty Great I am
Who is worthy
None beside Thee
God Almighty
Great I Am
He's the Great I Am Great I Am
The mountains shake before Him
The demons run and flee
At the mention of the name
King of Majesty
There is no power in hell
Or any who can stand
Before the power and the presence of the Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am The Great I am
(Chorus)
Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am The Great I am
The mountains shake before Him
The demons run and flee
At the mention of the name
King of Majesty
There is no power in hell
Or any who can stand
Before the power and the presence of the Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am The Great I am
(chorus)
the Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am
The Great I am The Great I am The Great I am
Somewhere in the middle of this song, I looked over and caught a glimpse of heaven for Mikayla. I looked over and she had her hands held high in the air in front of all the people in the sanctuary and tears were streaming down her face. She was with her daddy and no one else was in the room. His Glory was all over her. I didn't dare touch her. I knew that He alone was doing a work on her that I didn't dare to hinder. I was so proud of her! We gave our baby's to God and now HE was bringing her into His presence through her worship of Him. She is pressing forward into Him and I am so loving to see it.
Anyway, if the day could get any better than that, we had prayed for Mikayla wanting to join the band at school. The natural didn't look like there was any way possible to make it happen. We have stretched and tightened up various things and to come up with 60.00 a month for an instrument looked tough, but we prayed and believed that if God put that desire into Mikayla's heart, then HE was going to provide the finances it would take. So, THAT HE DID. He provided in a way that she KNOWS HE DID IT. Not only did He make a way for us to rent an instrument, He actually provided a possible flute so that she would not have to rent an instrument. Hallelujah!!! God is so providing our every need!! He is still the miracle worker and HE STILL PARTS THE RED SEA!! You may say this is no big feat, but you don't realize MY GOD IS AMAZING. I will praise Him in these miracles and I KNOW that HE REIGNS. His GOODNESS leads us to repentance. We are turning to HIM and deciding to BELIEVE HE truly is the Great I AM!!! NO TURNING BACK!!! We shall walk by faith and not by sight!!!
