Healing and feathers given

1-14-15- Last night at Aglow, My daughter had some awesome healing from her past memories.  Holy Spirit brought things to light things from when she was a baby at daycare the first year of her life.  He brought her back to the room where she was hurt and showed her where Jesus was.  This was extremely emotional for me and I was SO THANKFUL that these memories were finally coming up and being brought to light.  For her whole life, she has had tormenting emotional pain at times due to something in her past that we have never been able to touch no matter what we did.  She has had severe emotional reactions to a song that she has heard at times.  For years, we have prayed and done all we knew to do, BUT ONLY GOD can bring up the memories and heal them when it is HIS TIMING.  Oh how I thank Him that He did.  I will never know all the pain and trauma that my kids have experienced in the depths of their precious souls, but I can continually pray for their healing in areas that need to be revealed so that they can be fully able to face whatever challenges come their way and learn from the healing processwho their God is.  For it is only as they come to Jesus for healing that they can be fully healed and restored and know Him as their healer. There were many times of exhaustion when I didn’t honestly know if God would EVER answer these prayers for her.  I think I almost decided that it was some sort of “cross” for her in life.  It was painful to watch my baby suffer, but I kept trying my best to trust that God would not let ANY PAIN that she or my son have ever went through to be wasted.  We think of Protection from God totally differently than He sees it.  You see God is our Daddy and He IS a protecting and loving fatherbut that doesn’t mean that we will never experience pain.  I am so thankful that the Lord is faithful to give us refuge and safety under HIS FEATHERS.  We might go through the painful traumas, but He was right there with us in it all and He sees the end from the beginning.  He knows that once we go through the healing process, we are going to experience His glory and know Him all the more and we will be ready to use anything we go through for the Kingdom of God.  In and of ourselves, we are nothing.  When we go through trauma, it damages us severely.  Sometimes, those wounds are covered over, but eventually, they will bring the death and destruction and we will seek the Lord for deep healing.  

So after this happened last night, this morning as I was getting ready for work I was putting on my eyeliner and all of a sudden a feather appeared. I believe the Lord was giving me a feather to remind me of Psalm 91:4- He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

Oh YES!! That's My Daddy!!

I thank you Jesus for all you have done for us by pouring out your blood on the cross and bringing us into this awesome family of the God! Thank you for protecting us by keeping us under your wings. 

HE CAN BE TRUSTED IN THE STORM

Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. (Matthew 8:24 NIV)

This morning I tossed n turned and was having some issues with grieving. What I thought was one of my better relationships somewhat ended this summer. I now realize just how superficial that relationship always has been anyway, but there is a longing in my heart to have a deeper relationship with this person. However, I am not able to give this person what they expect so therefore the door was slammed shut to me. I am unsure of just how to go and reconcile when it is not wanted. There are now deep wounds that need to be healed. As deep as it all hurts I don't foresee being able to be in relationship with this person unless Jesus is the center of the relationship. It is extremely hard to deal with emotional storm that comes with all this. BUT GOD..... 

I have heard it said that you only have authority over the storm you are able to sleep through. (As you see Jesus does. He knows who His Daddy is and FEAR does not grip Him) Even though I am not actually asleep in this one I believe I'm going to trust God enough to take care of it. In the midst of that I choose rest. Thank you Jesus for healing me of any wounds necessary for healthy growth. (1st posted and the clocked said 5:55. GRACE GRACE GRACE TO THE MOUNTAIN) then I got am email with a prophetic word to the body of Christ. Thank you Daddy for hearing my heart and reminding me that you always hear my heart cry. This is the prophetic Word I received:

"I know your weaknesses and your continuous struggles to overcome your natural responses to the frequent attacks of the enemy, who often uses people you love most to wound your heart. I am moving Heaven and earth to bring you into a place of inner strength and authority over your own flesh and over every fiery dart of the enemy. I will empower you to live in harmony with your brethren like you have never experienced before.

"You will see My blessing empower you, prosper you, and protect you in these days of strife and turmoil in the world. The Holy Spirit will produce His fruit in you, and you will demonstrate what happens when you truly abide in the Vine. Rejoice in every trial, for I will teach you how to turn every trial into triumph. Expect blessings to fall from Heaven when you trust Me in the storm"

So I am encouraged by my Daddy once again to trust Him and PRAISE Him in this storm. I seem to be a mess at times and I don't like the ugliness of my failures, but through it all, HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL. He is so worthy of all I have to die to, and in the process of going through, HE LOVES ME!! I am so thankful for His love!

We are Mirrors

Recently, my husband talked of how other people can be used as mirrors in our lives. They help us grow and to see the spots in us that we are unable to see. I wondered about that because often times I feel like a critical person when I do that so I try my best to keep my mouth shut until finally I can no longer keep Peace and have to say something. And  when I do it that way, RARELY is it under the Power of the Holy Spirit and instead is yucky and fleshly nastiness. I have been seeking the Lord about the issue I have with being afraid to "confront" early and in love. This morning, the Lord used Joyce Meyers devotional to speak to me. Here is what she shared:

Appreciate Honesty from Other People 

Everyone loves compliments, but very few know how to handle constructive criticism. No one likes to be wrong, which makes it hard when people are uncomfortably honest with us. 

But we need to be thankful for honesty in other people. I once heard someone say, "Only two people will tell you the truth about yourself: someone who is angry with you and someone who loves you very much." God uses both types in our lives, but He especially uses the honesty of friends and loved ones. 

When someone can, in love, honestly show you how you can improve, the results will be so much more valuable than empty, ego-stroking compliments. It's this kind of relationship that the Bible describes as 'iron sharpening iron.' 

I urge you to be thankful for people who tell you the truth about yourself, even if it's not what you want to hear. 

When you hear the truth, especially something you weren't aware of, you can change. Ultimately, their honesty will make you a better person. 

Prayer Starter: Lord, thank You for placing truly honest people in my life. Their honesty may make me uncomfortable at times, but I know that when I listen to them, You can help me become a better person.

So as I am thinking today about mirrors, I am reminded of how they cant do their job without light. So Lord, I ask that we stir up the gift of being mirrors for each other and the iron thats needed to sharpen iron and that we would walk in the Light of your LOVE to help each other grow and be strengthened in your Spirit! Help us to have the courage to change when we need to change and to recognize our faults and confess them freely in Jesus name!! Amen!!

Shepherd's Rod excerpt and 2013 "Shepherds Rod" personal Word

I have been reading a book by Rick Joyner called "The Path (Fire on the Mountain). This section has stirred my spirit man so I wanted to post it. The Lord has been showing me so much about His Fire and preparing ourselves and His Body for HIS GLORY. We must be walking in our gifts and callings to be complete as a body. This is what stirred me. 

It is the writer talking to one in the group named Mark and Mark is replying to the question “Where did you get all of this understanding?”

 

“When I was given my calling as a prophet I was told that one of my assignments was to recognize those who had the shephard’s staff and to support them. I have only see them in visions before, but I recognized that staff right away.”

 

“Tell me all you know about it, “ I implored.

 

“You think your rod is new and freshly cut, but it is much older than you can imagine.  It seems like it is new and fresh because of the life that is in it, and life will stay in it as long as you walk with God and do not depart from His path.  This was cut from the Tree of Life before the world was formed, and it was sized just for you at that time.  This is true of every shepherd’s staff given to the shepherds, even those who lead the smallest company of God’s people.  Do you know why Enoch was the one who gave this to you?”

 

“I know a little, but I think you may know more.  Please tell me what you know.”

 

“Enoch represents the path on which all true shepherds will lead God’s people.  True shepherds are known by their walk with God.  They may be great counselors, healers, and teachers, but the shepherds will be known most of all by their walk with God and their closeness to Him.  There are many things that can cause people to follow you, but the shepherds will be known by how they follow God on the path of life.

One thing by which we can recognize shepherds that have stayed on the path of life is by their increasing joy.  This was the joy you saw in Enoch.  Shepherds who have stayed on the path of life do not seem to have cares or burdens because they are yoked with the One whose yoke is easy.  These are not stressed, but are constantly energized by the strength that comes from the joy of the Lord.  Their rod, or their authority, will be recognized by the life that is in them.  Their rod will always be budding, bringing forth new life, because it comes from the Tree of Life HIMSELF”

 

As Mark talked, everyone was enthralled, but some more so than others.  I knew these were the shepherds.  Deep was calling to deep, and their hearts were being awakened.  As I watched Mark I could tell that he was also noting those who were being especially touched so that he could speak to them more at a later time.  “What a gift he is to us,” I thought, “and so young!”

 

“I am young, but I have already walked with God for a few years,” Mark said, as if hearing my thoughts.  Then he continued:  “Some claim to be able to use a ‘diviner’s rod’ to find water under the ground; they are the counterfeits to what you have in your hand.  Your rod can find the living waters that are hidden below the surface.  Deep calls to deep, and life calls to life.  Those who have the shepherd’s rod become increasingly sensitive to what is life and where the waters of life are flowing,”  Mark said, and then hesitated as if he had more, but did not know if he should share it. 

“Please continue,” I said to him.

“When your rod buds you must GENTLY break the buds off.  Then you must give them to those who are being awakened to their calling as shepherds.  These buds will grow with them, and each one will become a staff like yours,” he said, again hesitating.

 

“Mark, please share all you know,” I said

“Okay.  Those who receive the buds now and grow up to be shepherds at the end of the age will walk in the authority of the Shepherd.  Their rod will be His rod in the earth.  They will not just lead God’s people and protect them from the enemy with the rod, but they will strike the enemies of the Lord.  They will not just part seas, but they will part nations.  They will lead God’s people to the Promised Land.”

 

“Why were you hesitant to share that, Mark?”  I asked. 

“Can I tell you privately?” he responded.

“If you think you need to, sure,” I answered, and we walked a short distance from the rest.

“Your rod was a bud that was given to you when you were very young in the Lord,” Mark began.  “You did not carry it for long before you laid it down.  In a sense, you did what Moses did when he threw his rod down at the Burning Bush.  He was being commissioned as God’s shepherd for His people, but did not fee adequate. When he threw the rod down it became a serpent and chased him until he picked it back up.  That is what happens when you cast off the calling of the Lord.”

 

The rest is just my personal Word from the Lord that I received as a Shepherds Rod on Day of Atonement 2013 for this YEAR OF THE OPEN DOOR. I wanted to have it in a more permanent place so I am adding it here. 

My Theshuvah 2013 Day of Atonement 9/13/13 (SHEPHERDS ROD FOR the YEAR OF THE OPEN DOOR)

 

7 Mountains (business, government, media, arts and entertainment, education, the family, and religion)These are the areas of influence in our culture.

I am a HOPE REFORMER.  I will be brought before leaders during a time of much destruction BUT THE LORD WILL SPEAK!

God’s original intent was for us to have dominion.  This is accomplished through obedience.  We do this through servant leadership.  We preach the gospel of the “KINGDOM” vs “SALVATION”, the governing impact of a king vs. being rescued.  Let HIS KINGDOM come and HIS WILL be done! Here on EARTH!  Jesus is Lord of All!  A gospel that doesn’t deal with the issues of the day isn’t the gospel at all. (JUST A NOTE:  Our testimonies should be CURRENT so that we can ALL OVERCOME by the Blood of the Lamb and the LIVING WORD of our testimony)

 

The higher you go on the mountain, the more demonic attack (1 Tim 3:1-4)

 

I am bringing you to your place of authority.  I provide all you need.  I bring you strength.  I am your Lord.

 

The mountains have been on my heart all day.  I can’t quit thinking of “influence”.  He said we are His ambassadors and He is giving us favor.  Beware of traps.  Hold firm to what HE has taught us.  (Ezek 36)  Prophesy to the mountains of Israel.  SHOUT GRACE GRACE to the mountains!

Enemies say “they belong to us” but you have been given dominion!

 

I am bring you back not because you deserve ti, but FOR MY NAME.  “I am a friend to sinners.  I love the world so much that I died for them.  I am filling my Bride with a love that will consume her.  Brokenness is being healed and used at the same time.  I have carried her in her time of brokenness and she will carry the world as they are broken.  (I saw the image of the two 7s mirrored together and wrote UNITY is completeness mirrored)

 

I am bring you deeper in to intimacy (into me you see) with me this year.  The SUPPER is soon.  Hold on to what you have.  I am coming for you I am bringing you VICTORY in the mountain.  I have ALWAYS supplied you with what you need.  The more influence you have, the MORE YOU MUST BE CLOTHED IN HUMILITY.

 

This year there will be more brokenness which will shine more light into the darkness.  I am with you.  I told you I would NEVER leave you or forsake you until you have finished all the work for my kingdom. You will not quit.  No matter how many times you want to quit, all you need is rest.  Just continue to trust me.  Don’t be afraid of their faces. 

 

Ezek 33- You are called to be a watchman.  You are called to warn the people of danger.  If you don’t do it from LOVE, the people will not be able to hear you.  I am putting a heart with the capacity to love them deeper.  Always remember that this comes from me.  “I am married to the Prostitue.”  Seek me 1^stand My Kingdom Righteousness.  Things will be given to you as you are in this my order.  When you seek out friends for answers and not me, they will advise you, but unless I BUILD YOUR HOUSE< YOU WILL LABOR IN VAIN.  YOU ARE MINE AND YOU ARE NOT TO GO TO ANY OTHER.  Intimacy between you and me is precious in my sight.  You are at the point of resurrection.  I have still got you in the palm of my hand.  This year I will resotre HOPE.  Hold on to what you have.  I am coming very soon.  Love Mercy and walk in my Peace.  I hear “Hezekiah” and wonder why.  (Isaiah 36-39- He asked for more time?  MERCY?)

HOPE

Just reminded of the AMAZING GRACE that my daddy gives. I had to stop and take a picture. The Lord is my only HOPE! He is my refuge and strength. He is my VICTORY in every battle! He is the AUTHOR and FINISHER of my faith! I am BUT DUNG without JESUS CHRIST IN ME THE HOPE OF GLORY!! I don't have e anything to prove, but that God's AMAZING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is all we need! Lord let us breathe in your GRACE and always continue to breathe out your praise!!! We love you Daddy!!

When everything surfaces

Over the past couple years, Things have been coming to the surface that were well hidden for many years. Sometimes, in our enjoying of our life we tend to forget all the pain that we have accidentally, subconsciously, or for whatever reason stuffed down. It takes the power the Holy Spirit getting inside of us and working these things from inside out. What do you do when the Holy Spirit begins pushing and pulling and bringing all these things to the surface? Does it bring you to your knees? Or does it bring you to Shame? Romans 8:28 tells us that ALL things work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purposes. If this is true, and I know it is, then we must begin to learn from all of the deep dark hidden things of our past that we have never fully surrendered. The Bible says we are to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. Lord, may those who are walking out their salvation have grace and Peace multiplied towards them and may we always walk humbly knowing that you make ALL OF US valuable!!

THERE ARE NO “I LOVE YOU BUT……”S IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD

THERE ARE NO “I LOVE YOU BUT……”S IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD

 My family and I have struggled for a while with some mentally challenging issues and it has taken quite a toll on us.  We have cried out to the Lord together on many occasions.  We have been through many valleys and a few mountain tops together.  We have all went through the pain of trauma, mental abuse, physical affliction, ADHD struggles, Bad self-perceptions, Grief from loss of two cats, and two parents/grand-parents all within the same year, times of hearing clearly from the Lord and times of not being able to see Him for all the tears that were streaming down our faces, times of rage and anger and such frustration at injustice that seemed to never end, times when we didn’t feel loved by anyone but God Himself, times where everyone around us couldn’t seem to see any good in us, and even times when we knew we weren’t “behaving” up to standard yet everyone around us still called us “good, times when the only thing we could do was in agonizingly call upon Jesus for healing and rescue because I didn’t even have the ability to “believe” for a healing or to proclaim what HIS TRUTH was in the moment. Thankfully, in all of the trials and all of the triumphs, the Lord has ALWAYS been faithful.  He speaks gently to us in times of distress as we are able to “Be still and KNOW HE IS LORD”.  I would love to say I am the so called “perfect” Christian, but I cannot.  I believe God for a lot of things, but all I am is a woman who is doing the best she can with what she has to work with.  I am flawed and VERY IMPERFECT and for some reason, the Lord chooses to send favor to use this EXTREMELY BROKEN vessel of His MERCY and GRACE.  I am one of the water pots that the Lord used to turn water into Wine at the wedding of Cana.  Unfortunately, there are times in my HUMANNESS that I have actually turned the water into WHINE. In all of this, I thank God for His UNCONDITIONAL LOVE that puts no limits on us.  In our most broken times of our humanity, HE IS NOT SURPRISED OR CONDEMNING to us even though we condemn ourselves because we hate to be in the mess that we are in at times.  We have the enemy speaking lies to us such as “you are a horrible parent”, “you are not a good child” “you will never amount to anything”, “See, you are still just as broken as the day Jesus picked you up and wiped the blood off of you”, “why are you still trying to believe for a miracle, Can’t you see I am going to keep your child?”, “You can do NOTHING right”. Truth is, all of these things would be true if it weren’t for the precious blood of Jesus.  We are hopeless in and of ourselves to even understand why we do the way we do sometimes.  Truth is: what we do is not who we are.  We are valuable even if we are flawed and imperfect.  Our actions only reflect what Love we have or have not been able to receive.  Have we always received love based on if we were “behaving”?  Then, we are more likely to have a performance based behavior system.  If we believe we can’t “perform” the duties or tasks that this life requires, we see ourselves as useless and tossed out with yesterday’s garbage.  Oh what wretched miserable lives we will live if our identity is wrapped up in what we do.  I have been there A LOT (I am ashamed to even admit). No, in these times of our greatest failures and faults, it’s ok to recognize that in ourselves we can fail.  HOWEVER, the more important thing to recognize is that it is the LORD who is in you that will rise to the occasion and lead you to the TRUTH that will set you FREE!! There is FREEDOM in JESUS CHRIST because He knows your heart!  Man looks at the outside and all the stumbling you do and calls you a failure, BUT GOD sees you and says you see how much you need my salvation?  You see that you can’t do it without me?  I saw from before the foundations of the earth and already paid the penalty for your sin and the death that it has brought you.  I BOUGHT IT with my blood and I CALL YOU VALUABLE and I call you forth out of the tomb of death!! It does not matter what others may think.  They have their own issues to bring to the CROSS to be crucified so that they can be resurrected as well.  I CALL YOU VALUABLE!!! I call your children BLESSED and their hearts long for me.  They have tender hearts and just need a little extra care and tenderness.  “I have been longsuffering with you and you will be longsuffering with them”. I have given you the ability to forgive anyone who comes against what I say in your lives.  I have placed your family in the palm of my hands and you have become MINE.  I will watch over you and will do that which is needed to fulfill my will in your lives.  All you need to do is to surrender your brokenness to me and I will give you beauty for those ashes.  Let the FIRE OF GOD do the work it needs to do in your lives and you will SEE RESURRECTION POWER fulfilled.  I am taking those hearts of stone and giving them hearts of flesh that they may see me! That they may feel the passion as they walk this life and look forward to life with me.

So, as I am here broken and in need of strength to even make it through the experiences, I know Jesus holds us in His hands and knows all the valleys and trials I need to go through.  I trust Him more (even if I am doing it through gritted teeth at times).  If we were all honest and transparent, we would all admit that we are flawed.  We tend to judge others and criticize when we haven’t walked a mile in their shoes.  May the Lord’s Peace and Forgiveness be received by all those who have wounded us. May they rise from any ashes of bitterness and unforgivenessand see the salvation of our mighty God is ONLY IN THE BLOOD OF JESUS! May all His servants be the Priesthood of all believers and sprinkle the Blood of Jesus on all those who have offended us.  Thank you Lord for your tender MERCIES that are new EVERY MORNING!!!