Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. (Matthew 8:24 NIV)
This morning I tossed n turned and was having some issues with grieving. What I thought was one of my better relationships somewhat ended this summer. I now realize just how superficial that relationship always has been anyway, but there is a longing in my heart to have a deeper relationship with this person. However, I am not able to give this person what they expect so therefore the door was slammed shut to me. I am unsure of just how to go and reconcile when it is not wanted. There are now deep wounds that need to be healed. As deep as it all hurts I don't foresee being able to be in relationship with this person unless Jesus is the center of the relationship. It is extremely hard to deal with emotional storm that comes with all this. BUT GOD.....
I have heard it said that you only have authority over the storm you are able to sleep through. (As you see Jesus does. He knows who His Daddy is and FEAR does not grip Him) Even though I am not actually asleep in this one I believe I'm going to trust God enough to take care of it. In the midst of that I choose rest. Thank you Jesus for healing me of any wounds necessary for healthy growth. (1st posted and the clocked said 5:55. GRACE GRACE GRACE TO THE MOUNTAIN) then I got am email with a prophetic word to the body of Christ. Thank you Daddy for hearing my heart and reminding me that you always hear my heart cry. This is the prophetic Word I received:
"I know your weaknesses and your continuous struggles to overcome your natural responses to the frequent attacks of the enemy, who often uses people you love most to wound your heart. I am moving Heaven and earth to bring you into a place of inner strength and authority over your own flesh and over every fiery dart of the enemy. I will empower you to live in harmony with your brethren like you have never experienced before.
"You will see My blessing empower you, prosper you, and protect you in these days of strife and turmoil in the world. The Holy Spirit will produce His fruit in you, and you will demonstrate what happens when you truly abide in the Vine. Rejoice in every trial, for I will teach you how to turn every trial into triumph. Expect blessings to fall from Heaven when you trust Me in the storm"
So I am encouraged by my Daddy once again to trust Him and PRAISE Him in this storm. I seem to be a mess at times and I don't like the ugliness of my failures, but through it all, HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL. He is so worthy of all I have to die to, and in the process of going through, HE LOVES ME!! I am so thankful for His love!
